3. Gr. It is a weekend and I am out walking. Yes!
2. As the cloud cover began to recede it appeared to be a gigantic blanket being pulled overhead.
1. TGT. Big change in the weather today. From muggy summer weather to feeling cold in a day or two. Suddenly it seems fall has been creeping up on us.
8. APAPB. I am having a moment of quiet appreciation before I close up for the night. It still amazes me how I can slip in and out various parts of my life. I appreciate that I now not only can see it, but appreciate it, as an appearance of the presentation of Being. It is more than slipping between roles. It sometimes seems like they are separate lives which now can cooperate and enhance wherever they interweave.
7. F. Getting into a Groove Again, finding out I do not seem to be the worse for wear. Able to look back and appreciate the appearance of the last month as a presentation of Being
6. F. To expand on #5: I can if I want
5. F. Remembering that it is wise to take appearances lightly…to appreciate them as a presentation of Being and then move on. One might call that a reality check.
4. Ton. Maybe one of the first steps is to try to stop causing suffering.
3. Gr. Yes!
2. TGT. Early fall returned this morning although the leaves were yet too moist to crunch underfoot. It is enough.
1. What if Joan of Arc had kept her visions to herself? This is not an unreasonable supposition. Much pain and grief would have been avoided. Were the ends worth the effort? On the surface the argument could very well be made “no”. On that level, she became a tool for a royal dynasty’s ambitions. On the other hand the story is so engaging because it demonstrates one person’s ability to rise above all the impossible odds and preconceptions of everyone including herself. Maybe in the legend, Joan is asking “what if?” The crucial moment is not the vision but the reaction to the vision.
What if Mary said “no thanks” to the angel? Another crucial moment, the acceptance. In the telling of the story there is no hesitation even.
I wonder if in both stories, it is a matter of trust rather than vision. Then unwavering conviction.
4. I have not blogged about some intense and personal “dream” experience I have had in the past few days which is floating in the background as a result. There are two aspects that are making me reticent: 1) it seems silly if I try to talk about it and 2) I am not sure I trust it. I am looking outward but it is not from the place where I would expect to be looking.
3. Ton. I am including my appointment who is 40 minutes overdue, probably due to oversleeping.
2. Gr. yes!!!
1. TGT. It is enough…
3. Ton. Still working on understanding this exercise and to make it part of my routine
2. Gr. I had an extra dose of appreciation this morning as I missed someone’s loving attention to detail
1. TGT. A warm, muggy late September day that kind of lulls people into thinking summer will never end. But the days are getting shorter and it is enough to be alive to appreciate the changing seasons
5. TON. It seems to take me some time to get the hang of a new exercise. this one seems to take at least “two to tango”.
4. TON – (Tonglen – breathing in the paina and suffering of others and breathing out compassion). I am adding this to my daily exercises. I hope to make it part of my consciousness.
3. A virtual visitor
Adams Rubble: Hello there
***: Why hello, Adams, what brings you here
Adams Rubble: I was talking about you last night with Eliza
***: Yes, I know. You had some interesting discussions yesterday. It was nice how you all got to dropping in yesterday morning’s session and how wonderful that felt
Adams Rubble: You are wondering what it is you are not able to touch
***: Yes, I am still a little bewildered that. You still have something unique that I am not able to touch either in RL or with other avatars. I thought it was just the voice that was holding me back but there has to be something else
Adams Rubble: What if it has nothing to do with appearances other than dropping yours. I have a suggestion for you
***: Yes?
Adams Rubble: Add Tonglen to your daily exercises. It will at least help you see away from yourself.
***: My goodness. I suddenly see what is missing. Is it just sort of a role play then, a way of dropping my own judgments of myself?
Adams Rubble: Maybe, but don’t be too quick to jump to conclusions again. There is no rush to figure this out. That is at least a part. I think Tonglen will help you see it better
2. Gr. This morning I had a feeling of gratefulness when I passed the buildings in RL that are modelled in SL
1. TGT. A beautiful cool September morning to remember it is enough to be alive
Today the words of Crosby, Stiles and Nash’s “Teach your children well” has been rattling in my head especially the lines “Just look at them and sigh, and know they love you”. It refers to the potential misunderstandings between parents and children, of course, but today it struck me as kind of acceptance, loving without conditions.
The pictures have nothing to do with that…they are from Bald Pate Mountain near Washington’s Crossing and a reminder to me of dropping things for a day.
2. Gr. ….and for all the blessings
1. TGT. I turned on the sound of my computer and the bell has gone off a few times reminding me that it might be useful to stop and remember it is enough to be alive…..
3. F. pause
2. Gr. Probably the most important exercise to do once a day
1. TGT. Late afternoon until I can remember to focus on remembering it is enough to be alive.
3. F. A stop about here would be a good thing to do
2. Gr. Remembering what I forgot yesterday morning
1. TGT. Beautiful September morning to remember it is enough to be alive.
2. Gr. Putting things into perspective
1. TGT. It is mid day but we have to start somewhere.
