8. F. pause. I have a headache and I am not writing very well. It was a productive day though.
7. F. pause. I stop and pull back a bit and look
6. F. pause. I hate these kind of meetings but at least i can get to choose when all hell breaks loose. The construction is coming to us.
5. F. pause. Working my way through the day. It is a day requiring some firmness; one more meeting to go. This is a long place from where I would like to be.
4. Gr. Good be grateful while facing some meetings today. I can even be grateful that at least I am included now.
3. TGT. It is enough to be alive.
2. I note that camp was supposed to be a solution; giving me a break from the awesome responsibility. Instead it is the supposed solution that leads to the disappearance; a procedure that was a distraction.
1. I just woke up from a dream and I am losing it quickly. I was me in RL and we had four daughters. They were very lively and very curious and it was hard to keep up with them. Well one was very small and I was able to carry her in a little zipper bag with firm sides. So that left three to worry about. Unfortunately this first part of the dream is gone, their early adventures. Eventually it was decided that they needed to go to summer camp and we were signing them up. For some strange reason the signup place was a distance from camp, maybe on the road in. There seemed to be extra things to do, forms to fill out, and I kept getting delayed. Meanwhile the girls were wandering off in all directions. When I finished the second youngest was missing. We looked everywhere including in the camp. There was a question about whether the camp or we were responsible. I surmised one thing that might have happened is that someone was watching and probably told the girl they were her ride to camp. That is the only way she would have gotten in. Naturally I was feeling all kinds of pain and anxiety. Then I told myself that this was a dream and I could drop it; there were no girls; gthere was no pain. That made me feel better at once, but I kept thinking about the dream. At one point I was counting and was thinking there were only three girls, not four so no one was missing but it really appears there were four. Thinking now, about 15 minutes after the dream ended, I think I dropped the girls on one level but there is another level on which they are not dropped. There seems to be something important in this one and I am bothered I am missing it.
