13. F. I am a wake some hours later and do not remember any of my dreaming.
12. F. I just spent about 15 minutes reflecting and wordpress lost it again. We are so used to software saving our stuff. This is like the 1980s all over again. Can I do it again?
It is the end of the day. I spent almost the whole evening in conversations in RL and SL, some of it about avatars. Today Pema talked to me about seeing as if all identities and attachments were lifted. How would I see? Sort of an enlightened being seeing. I know I still have identities..I can feel them sometimes clouding things. While Pema was talking I was looking out the window at the reflection of a red brick walk against the underside of a concrete walkway; the concrete was pink on the underside. That image will remind me of the invitation to try to see what the world would look like if I could see clearly.
I feel some connection to Being tonight for the first time in about a week. It is comforting, almost like being tenderly held. What dreams might I have tonight. Time to find out. Good night world. The earth is dark on this half.
11. F. pause
10. F. pause. I need to mention that Stim and Pema told me today that avatar is Sanskrit for manifestation of a god.
9. F. Filling conversation pauses with something new. Much like Doug’s idea to think that one has time instead of one is busy. How to replace the I negative phrases in conversation. “I feel great”. “I am so happy today” “Isn’t this a beautiful day?….OK except for the three feet of snow and the hail and the wind…and the dogs barking”
8. How many pairs of sunglasses will I have to remove until I see clearly?
7. F. Back from a metaphorical Mecca
. I am finding it interesting at this moment that it doesn’t take much to revert back to where one once was, but, on the other hand, it doesn’t take much to bounce back to a feeling of connection.
6. F. Stop for a few moments to refocus
5. F. All this avatar stuff is a bit of a distraction
4. F. Is it necessary to identify with our avatar? Is it necessary to love our avatar? Does that have anything to do with love of ourselves? If the avatar has some kind of mission, then isn;t a good thing to wear that avatar lightly. In doing so we learn to wear our own skins lightly.
3. Gr.
2. TGT. Another day to be alive and limp through the world looking for new adventures. The first part is enough
1. Yesterday I explored the possible comparisons between the role of Moses to his people viz. Adams and ***. I spent a few minutes reading some of the account of Joshua last night and two things had struck me then: Moses died before Joshua became leader and the relationships with God was similar for Moses and Joshua but the tasks were different. Thinking about Joshua this morning I realized that Joshua was the military leader but got all his strategy and timing from God, through the “Captain of the Lord’s Army”. I began to think of Joshua as a translator and then it hit me. Both Moses and Joshua have the role of “spirit guides” Ahhh, familiar ground then.
I also partially read briefly this morning a brief (i.e. dumbed down) synopsis of Krishna’s life in which he battles a swan which is an “avatar” of the demon. My source was written long before Second Life was a thought. Is avatar a Hindu concept or is this a coincidence? The point here is that the avatar is a creation to do a specific task possibly in a different place or world.
Then the thought struck me that Christ was sent to a different world for a specific task (i.e. the saving of mankind). Was Christ an avatar of God? The concept of the Trinity might suggest such a connection, eh? This is kind of an “ouch” moment falling somewhere between an important observation, on the one hand, and irrelevant heresy, on the other. I’ll leave that thought for another time.
What is the difference between your self and your avatar? Both are things you’ve created and spent enormous amounts of time modifying. The self, however, has the notion that it’s you while the avatar doesn’t see itself as you (or at least, not the whole you).
Identifying points to this notion that it’s you. Loving is just something that happens naturally if you just let it happen.