14. F. pause
13. F. pause
12. F. pause
11. F. Feel nothing when I pause
10. F. pause. pushing myself today
9. F. Hmmm. More chaos. I remind myself that none of this is important; the chaos is illusion
8. F. A few minor crises attended to and I am a bit off course; feel a touch of anxiety.
7. F. Another copying break.
6. F. an unexpected moment to reflect while files copying. Who am I as I try to expand my thinking to include new situations of my own creation
5. F. pause
4. F. Although there is some literature on the experience with avatars in the virtual world, a certain amount of this is new ground. Very little in moving with a group to real life
3. Gr. Yessss!
2. TGT. Another day to be alive on this beautiful planet and I can’t wait to get to work this morning
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1. Z-self had summoned me and so I grabbed my keyboard and rushed to *** Headquarters. Adams was already there.
Z-Self: Please sit down, ***. I have had some thoughts that I want to share with you both. I have been thinking of Moses as a metaphor for Adams
***: Haha, that’s funny
Adams Rubble: Shhhhhh ***. Let Z-Self talk
Z-Self: At a certain point it became time for Moses to relinquish his leadership. The story is contrived to be a flash of temper but there is a metaphor there too. It is unfair, of course, because the fault was with the people who set up the idols. But when Moses took it on himself to express the anger that should have come from God, I expect he lost the ability to lead in the crises to come. It also was a punishment to the people that they lost Moses and were delayed themselves
Adams Rubble: Have I done something wrong?
Z-Self: No Adams, of course not. But the “people” are a metaphor for ***. There may be a certain point when you cease to speak effectively to ***. Think of the promised land as real life. A Joshua may be more effictive in bridging the lessons of PaB into real life. But your role was the hardest and for that you are the greater. It was Moses who walked and talked with God and who we revere the most today
Adams Rubble: Joshua got a Book named after him
Z-Self: Haha. That little bit of vanity demonstrates your own “self”. Look up at the top of the page. Tell Adams about art, ***
***: Yes, it is Moses who appears in all the paintings and on the walls of Gothic cathedrals. The story of the burning bush and the ten commandments are major themes in religion too. Look at the St. Catherine Monastery at Mt. Sinai. It is those events which are revered.
Adams Rubble: hehe. OK
Z-Self: Adams, you have helped us identify and/or circumvent a great number of identities and attachments simply by being you. You have walked and talked with God and helped *** make those connections
***: yes, you have corrected some of my distorted views and allowed me to remove myself from Z-self’s way more often. So you think I need a Joshua to go the rest of the way
Z-Self: I am not sure yet. Joshua may provide more of a comfort zone. I am not sure if that helps or hurts you in the long run. It may be better to keep you uncomfortable 
***: Great! Thanks!
Z-Self: I expect we need to experiment further with this
***: I am not remembering much about Joshua other than he was mighty in battle and either he blew, or ordered blown, the horn to bring down the walls of Jericho
Z-Self: We need to read up on that and consider his role and whether there might be a metaphor that fits
***: and we must prepare Joshua for his role?
Adams Rubble: What happens to me?
Z-Self: Even after Moses learned he was not to lead the people further, he continued to lead them for a time. The people had to remain in the desert for that time though while they waited for Moses to die
Adams Rubble: I have always worn myself lightly (well almost always)
Z-Self: Don;t worry, you will always be an important adviser to us, and a reminder to *** and I not to forget the lessons you have taught us
Adams Rubble: Hmmmm, Joshua….a mighty warrior? I can’t wait to see him in that role
Z-Self: Haha. Get to work you guys
***: OK boss.
