6. Who am I? What is all this stuff getting in the way of knowing? All this “I”? What is this turmoil under the surface? It must be stemming from desire because it feels like a brand of suffering.
5. F. I’m not writing down all that is in my head today. I am somewhat muddled to say the least. I’m stymied. I still have my goals of trying to be a better person and living compassionately. Have I gotten any closer to those? BTW, this morning my friend, the Buddhist dog, was barking, “com pash’n ate, com pash’n ate” in his high Jack Russell Terrier voice.
4. F. Add doubt to the list of identities, attachments
[long gap between stops including afternoon PaB session]
3. F. Jealousy is another identity or attachment to go with desire, fear, anger and anxiety. Envy would be another. As I noted yesterday, the rest of the seven deadly sins could go here too.
2. F. I sometimes wonder a bit now what part of me is the RL person and what part is Adams. Sometimes it seems we are merging
1. TGT. pleasant way to begin
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A warm, humid Saturday here. I am just back from a morning walk in the forest swamp, thus no stops this morning. As might be expected much of the walk was kind of a meditation…certainly was a good time to think. As often happens on such a nice long walk, the thoughts are just too varied to begin to write about them coherently.
