2. BrM. Just finished reading most of the newly posted PaB logs. Sometimes after doing that I feel a bit muddled. I porbably should try to read one session at a time.
1. BrM. Need to refocus on what I am not seeing. I seem to remember having thoughts on that today
[I have been doing various forms of meditation today on odd places with varying results. Some were short like 9 seconds and some were uo to a few minutes. I had no thoughts during these, just awareness or peacefulness]
note to myself: 6/1
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I am a little late getting started having been out walking in the woods for the better part of the day. I spent some time reflecting on the 24 hours I have spent the past 7 days in conversation with PaB members, either as a group or individually. I did not count in the personal or playful discussions not related to either PaB or Buddhism. There is no way I would have done this in real life. The difficulty is preventative except to the most determined. Also I have talked with Zen, Tantric and Theravada Buddhists, also not easily done in one week in real life. I am filled with gratitude for the patience and kindness shown to me.
I atended two sessions on anger this week and read one from a previous session. I was focused on other things at the time and was not all that open to the discussion, maybe even slightly annoyed that the subject kept coming up. However in one of those sessions someone spoke of anger being something we should not shun from. On the contrary, when it rose up, the trick was to just be mindful of it and then let it go. This may be the most useful piece of advice that I was able to take back to real life. A number of times since then, I have had that experience and just let it pass. In the past I would try to justify the anger by focusing on what someone had done and need to exaggerate the offense to justify the anger. What a useful new tool!!!
While in some grasslands today, I also tried a form of walking meditation (F—- Meditation) mentioned by Storm last week. I am intrigued because it is a bit poetical. It is [to be continued]
